Sunday, April 18, 2010

In which I describe "The Prom"

Current Tunes: Regina Spektor
Current Plans: Whatever I feel like.
Current Excitement: ...

Meowww. I'm currently on a photo editing binge. I let myself get backed up. So. Mas.
Um. So prom was yesterday! Whew. There was a lot of build-up to that.
I had a really swell time getting ready with Sarah and Kendra. We had mac and cheese and watched Juno like we were sixteen again. It was enchanting. They looked SO gorgeous. Then there was a series of awkward moments. And dinner, which was nice but expensive. Then some deliberation, and off to THE PROM. It was nicely decorated. And I was really, really thrilled to see so many beautiful faces that I've been missing. Everyone looked really good! And I got some good dancing in. Exercise much? Bahah. I had a blast dancing with my amigos. It was a memorable evening.

I'm kind of frustrated today, because I've got to go over my Econ test and do some Econ homework. And I'm just fed up with that class. There's no way I can win. I hate feeling stupid. And this class makes me feel like an invertebrate. ugghhhh. I just want to cry a lot.

I thought I'd sleep well after last night. But my stupid brain wouldn't shut up, and I ended up waking up every few hours. And then I woke up slightly after nine and couldn't get back to sleep. So I'm still awake, but still bone tired. Today will consist of photoediting/uploading/organizing.. watching movies, reading, studying, homework, showering, napping?, and possibly some baking.

Also, I ate a new kind of apple today! A gala, I think it was. Def. not as good as Red Delicious. It was too... sandpapery and crumbly. But still pretty good. I'd gone a week or more without an apple, so at any rate I was thrilled to eat it! I also had some carrots. Trying to get my poor soul to wake up! I don't want today to be a total waste.

Hokay, that's it for now. Later folks.
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Friday, April 9, 2010

In which I return!

Current tunes: Superchick!
Current plans: laze about, get my hurr did, go to bank, evening with Kendra
Current excitement: The fact that the day is ALL MINE.

Heyyyyyy guysss.. Hopefully one or two of you still check this occasionally. Hahaha. There's been some stuff moving and going on in my life. Disappointments and frustrations along with joys and excitements. And a giant side of stress.

I got over the hurdle of my second Economics exam yesterday afternoon, which was a HUGE load off. That exam was overing over me like the angel of death. Bah. It was pretty killer, so we'll see how I do. I did well on my World Lit midterm though, which was an essay and an in-class exam. Got A's on both! That was nice.

Brennan was over yesterday. He's a bit ill, so he was kind of crabby, but extra snuggly! There was a while when he was tired where I just held him and he would just stare at everything around him, and then he'd just nuzzle his chubby little face into my chest. He's getting so big! And his smiles still brighten my life. I loooooooove him. He makes me babycrazy, though, which is probs a bit dangerous at this early stage of my life, lol.

We have had a bit of bad news here at home. We found out this week that my mom has breast cancer. This is an especially low blow considering she only just finished chemotherapy for her colon cancer two months ago. The doctors think that they have caught the cancer early enough, and her prognosis is very good. She will be having a surgery on the 26th to remove the lumps, and then she will have to have some radiation. But if they find out that she has the breast cancer gene (which would mean the cancer would just come back again), she might get a double mastectomy. It's ... I don't know... It's just a real bummer. I wish I could do it all for her, because she's been a real hero this last year already. But her unwavering faith in God is really an inspiration for me!

On a lighter note, prom is just over a week away! We got my date's tux last night.. He'll look... interesting. :D I'm suuuuper excited! There's still a few things I need to have wrapped up, though...

So this song by Superchick, "Alright" describes my feelings exactly a lot of the time. It's a good song to remind yourself that rough times don't last. Hopefully the lyrics will help you feel a little better!

"There's so much on my mind lately I can't make out my own thoughts anymore. I don't know where one begins and the other one ends. I wish that I could push a button and turn it off just for a little while. Long enough to take a breath, and then I know:

It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay.

There's so much that needs done lately I can't make out what's important anymore. I don't know where my needs begin and someone else's ends. I don't wanna let anybody down cuz I feel like I'm falling down when I do. But for now would someone else please volunteer to say:

It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay. It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay.

Life is hard for everyone so let's blow it all off just for a little while. Let's take a break, it'll still be there when we get back. I always try to solve all my problems by working real hard, going just another mile. But every now and then I think we should let it all go and say:

It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay. It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay.

This is my last verse, and it's for everyone feeling not so great today. We don't know what's coming just around the bend. It's always hard to believe in your own life, easier to find belief for a friend. So you hope for me, me for you, and together we will say:

It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay. It'll be okay. It'll be alright. It'll be okay, hey yeah, it'll be alright. It'll be okay."


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